05.02.10 It’s heavy, but I’m happy!

Today, my mind was bombarded with a stream of heavy postings. Well, actually I should blame myself for reading them. No, I should not blame myself for reading them, but I am guilty for thinking them over.

I was wondering how elastic our brain is. Don’t you ever wonder just how our brain is able to accommodate all sorts of thoughts (some of them are rubbish actually). At the same time, our brain is able to remove just everything, some purposely but some against our will (this is called forgetfulness).

But, I like all those postings I read today and all of them really got me going, I mean, they keep me away from idleness albeit at the end of the day I will be exhausted to the brim.

If I were to choose, I’d rather keep myself busy with all those heavy stuffs than sitting idly (although this is more fun).

The moral of the story, err…. let me think… no, I don’t want to think… better sleep!

31.01.10 Sitting back and smiling with my Coca Cola to the very last drop…

Suddenly, past memories came rushing, filling my already saturated mind to the brim. The yesteryears form a tapestry that plays in front of my closed eyes.

Why this sudden nostalgia? A glancing view of the past brings an ache to my heart. Memories bring back the undead that was lying deep and forgotten in the deep sea of my mind.

But when I came to think of it again, the memories bring the joy of yesterdays – the forgotten laughter, the hidden smiles, the lost love and the buried hope.

Soon, the present too will come to past. Oh Time, why can’t you slow down a bit or at least wait till I etch all these memories so that I may never forget. But I guess you never wait, do you?

Well then, that’s too bad because by tomorrow you will have made one more heart broken and one too many enemies.

As for me, I’ll just sit back and smile, while drinking my Coca Cola, enjoying it to the very last drop.

30.01.10 … love prevails…

Life is about celebration. Now, hold on. Don’t get me wrong. I am not suggesting that life is all blissful and we forgo all the suffering and pain in the world. No.

When I say “celebration” I am talking about the things that we should be thankful and grateful in life. Not all that we should be grateful about are happiness or the good things. We can be grateful with both the positive and negative things in life. Celebrating is about being aware, aware of our surroundings, with all the elements that come to play in our lives, be it happiness or sadness.

Sometimes we are just too preoccupied with the things that please us without knowing its potential to bring pain not just to ourselves, but to people around us, including those precious to us.

Life is about celebration. When we live, we are actually celebrating life. We should be aware of what makes life matters to us. All things play a part in our lives, the pains and happiness, birth, death, losing a love one…. This is life. When we acknowledge all these we are being aware of them and giving due to their contribution in our lives. These are the things that shape and build our live. Without them, our life is empty.

When we sum up all these things and try to look for a pattern that can link the dots, at last we will come to a point where it all came from one source, love.

And finally, despites all things, it is love that prevails.

29.01.2010 Well, That Was a Little Bit Too Much …

Oh, it has been quite a while since I last wrote. I will not offer any excuse. Or perhaps I should just say that I have been busy. Yes, busy.

I will not promise anything. One thing for sure, I will try my best to write again. (Hmm …I think that one counts as a promise, right?)

I enjoyed penning my thought. I wonder why such a good pastime became such a bore. Perhaps I was just burnt out, and the next time I disappear into nowhere I’ll use this excuse again. It’s so convenient and easy. Hmm …why not?

Well, I was just going to say hello again … but it turned out that I said just a little too much this time. Ok … see you again.

11.11.09 Aku berdiri, lalu pergi …. imanku telah menyelamatkan aku ……

I stand, and I go. Not because boredom worn me out, but because I have come to believe. Believe? Yes, believe.

I believe there is light waiting at the end of a long and dark tunnel. There is silence at the end of damp and tumultuous alley.

Something, yes, something better and bigger is waiting, if only we stand up and go. And then, perhaps, we can be grateful that our faith has saved us.

15.09.09 – To start is easy, to stay on course is harder.

How long can a person stay true to his commitment before slipping into some kind of idleness? It is easy to start something but it harder still to maintain straight on course. This saying has been shown to be true time and again.

Perhaps staying out of the main course has its benefits (if it can be called one). It gives time for a person to think and perhaps to reevaluate and make some reflection on him/her own self and hopefully get up on his/her feet again, to start the journey. Well, this is what ideally should happen but then only the individuals themselves can decide on this.

As for me, time away from blogging has given me a much needed refreshment for my mind. Not that I was headed into some kind of mind block, but I needed some time to think again to where I heading with my ideas. I hope this will be a beginning of many more writings to come, and of course, I’ll take some time off along the way but I hope it will not be a long one.

17.08.09 – I have to start!!!

Some people said that to start something is easy, but to maintain the momentum is hard. As for me, I am experiencing the opposite.

As I embarked on a writing project, there is so much in my mind and so much material to begin with. But, there is one problem – I am finding it hard to start. I have a habit of collecting materials before finally put it in writings. But that is for short writings. I dare not depend on my habit for this particular project. It’s too risky.

Well, I am not the only one who is in the same boat. There are others, my friends who are embarking on the same journey as I am.

I think the most logical solution is I have to force myself to start. Perhaps just write something and just hope that mother fortune will give her overflowing blessings upon me.

16.08.09 – Can I Tell You How I Feel?

A lot of things have happened, and a lot more to come. The strings of events sometime make people feel stifled.

How if this stifling moments begin to give us some undesired effect? A stifling environment is not a conducive environment to live sanely. If it is physical, then it is easier to overcome. But if we are emotionally stifled, I think there is only one thing we can hope for, someone close to pour out what is inside us. But not everyone is privileged enough to have that kind of person near them when they need one. So, what then?

As person of faith, I always turn to God. I do have my dear friend to turn to and my dear friend is close by, and I can tell my dear friend the very personal side of me. My dear friend is a blessing and I thank God for my dear friend.

We must hold a very basic disposition if we want to be able to turn to someone or God. We should be ready to tell our close ones or God what is inside us. We should tell them how we feel. Without this disposition, then it is hard for anything to happen.

We do not need to tell them everything, but we should be sincere in getting them to listen to us, and sincere in telling them what we feel.

15.08.09 – There is time for everything

There is time for everything! This saying is good because it teaches us not to worry over tons of work in front of us.

This saying has become a mere jargon, on that I used as an excuse for not doing anything at all. How bad is that? Well, it depends. I think everyone of us have a habit of procrastinating over anything. Sometime we feel that it’s not too urgent or perhaps we just don’t have the spirit to get it done.

What can we do? Well, the best I can say right now is, “There is time for everything!”

And we are back to square one!

11.08.09 – Killing Time: My Style

One of the activities I enjoy most is watching television. Usually, I will start watching TV after 10 at night and I will go on until midnight. This is what I call my night partner. What do I watch?

Actually, I like to watch local channels, and usually the soap opera. I don’t know why but it has been like that for the past few years. Do I like watching movies? Yes but I have my preference. I will watch movies in the theatre but I will rarely watch it on a VCD. I will most probably be watching movies on the TV channels, be it on a cable TV or just on the local channels.

Well, I think people have their own preferences, likes and dislikes. I have mind too. It is one of the ways I am using to unwind my mind after some heavy activities.

I kind of like this routine and I will probably go on like this for quite some time in the future.